Live your life!!

I’ve been out so late…having one๐Ÿท for the road to relax….I’ll drop this one here for the night๐Ÿ˜‡

My sexy,classy ladies..with the killer looks….I gatchu today๐Ÿ˜œ๐Ÿ˜œ….sooo,I’ve been thinking… Who is a HOE???(you can inbox me please)๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚……..

First,Snoop Dogg said, “Cut throats,gun smoke,dope and hoes,is what controls niggas souls”….

I have no problem with a nigga who has got my ass calling me a hoe but if you have not dicked me down please shut your fuckin’ mouth๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

She wears fancy clothes,she goes out to expensive places,someone drops her off at her place….deal with it!!!…you have no right to call her a hoe coz you know nothing….

She gets your boyfriend’s attention then your boyfriend got an issue sis…he is the hoe๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚…

Honestly,the world we living at you can’t differentiate who is a hoe and who is not…surprisingly, hoes are the ones calling good girls hoes…smh!!!…Being part of this life I feel like I’m bound to end up with somebody that’s been with everybody๐Ÿ˜‘๐Ÿ˜‘…it’s a messed up world!!

Yeah..am a hoe maybe…but in bed with ‘my man’๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

Okay…my point is,everyone has a life…live your life and mind your own business….Don’t judge people!!..Always look the other way…

Ladies,I know it hurts at times being called a hoe…you should know that when it comes from other women its coz of insecurity,hate,jealousy.. You gat what they want and it kills them๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚….trust me that encourages me so much knowing that am a threat๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚….

When it comes from a man it shows that he is unable to have you and it hurts..so he goes all the way to call you a hoe….

Ladies who have ever been called hoes for being outstanding and beautiful.. Cheers๐Ÿท….let’s live this life to the fullest mehn๐Ÿ˜œ๐Ÿ˜œ…and those calling others hoes,I hope you are really saved and all holy…and virgins๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

And remember God is the only judge…don’t go around thinking you gat everybody’s life figured out

๐ŸŒธUNAPOLOGETIC๐ŸŒธ

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Love Letter๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ“จ

Maybe am writing this for a special person who exists or doesn’t exist…am caught up in between…. Ahaaha..

It’s almost 7:00pm,no lights..Goddamn it!!!…am like, who gonna take me home coz my place is a bit far…but tf!..am that indipendent lady so imma go by myself…. And there is this guy,I’ve been seeing around for a while…so am like,”how about I get that first hug”..creepy,right ???….so,I guess that was where the story was to begin๐Ÿ‘ฃ๐Ÿ‘ฃ(i know y’all curious about what unfolded but that’s a story for another day..sorry๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚)

Dear ๐Ÿ’œ,

Deeeyymm!!it’s been a ride…months…huh…you loved me when I least deserved it because that’s when i really needed it…I know am difficult to handle, really difficult to handle but you never got tired of me….

All that time I wished I could understand what you really wanted….what was in your mind about us?,did you really love me??,did you want us to last??,was this real?,did I make you happy at any one moment??

There is something I never told you,you made me feel what love really feels like,you made me happy(although we were in bad terms at times),you were like my best friend…I prayed everyday that we’d overcome all the barriers and stick together… I just wanted you for myself!!!(too much to ask,right??)….I had no reason for loving and no understanding of how that love worked,all I knew is i fell for you with the entirety of my heart and mind……

I can’t forget the endless conversations,the morning calls….when i saw your name pop on my phone,I would smile and I’d say to myself, “Shiiit!!,I fuckin’ love this nigga”…(memories still fresh!!)

All I ever wanted is to whisper underneath my breath that yoh mine๐Ÿ’….

Until now,I wish we could get another chance to make everything right….but we can’t change fate…all that matters to me right now is that I know deep down the dream that ever mattered had come true and that in this life I was loved by youโœŠ๐Ÿ’ฏ๐Ÿ’ฏ

I just wish you well,hope you find a better person who’ll make your life way better….

PeaceโœŒโœŒ

Yours,

Mysterious

My people, I don’t necessarily write what I go through but what my friends go through too….I just try to put myself in their shoes.

Thanks for reading and liking๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜

Hard to let go

First i was dying to know you, then i was dying to have you but i knew i had to wait.
I did not mind the wait, it actually made everything worthwhile but somewhere along the way i realised i had forgotten how to live. I tried to let you go for how could i wait for someone who wasn’t mine to keep or love someone who wasn’t there to stay. For the first time i was afraid, not because i had fallen for you but because i could not just walk away like you meant nothing to me.
And now i am afraid because i know i might not be able to let you go this time. I might just not survive this time.

Painful love๐Ÿ’”

Yeah,they say what is love with no pain and no suffer….but the pain,the hurt and the suffer can be extreme..

The pain caused by love kills you slowly like cancer but that only happens when you dwell in that pain.At times we hurt the ones we love but hurting ourselves to avoid it doesn’t make it any better…

It hurts the most when you trying to decide whether to stay or walk away…we stay in toxic love simply coz we scared to be lonely… But is that love worth the stay???….

Maybe you are never lucky with love… You feel like you were destined to fall in love with the people you couldn’t have and there is a whole assortment of impossible people waiting for you to find them,waiting to make you feel the same impossibility over and over again…(maybe am a victim too) but don’t be so hard on yourself.. Give your heart a break

Trust me,I go through such shit…at times I feel like hating myself and I fill my mind with questions like;

~Must I go bound while he goes free??

~Must I love a man who doesn’t love me??

~Must I be born with so little art??

As to love a man who’ll break my heart.

I guess love is for the few๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚…..this is because it hurts to love,it’s like giving yourself to be flayed and knowing that at any moment the other person may just walk off with your skin๐Ÿ˜…….

Who has ever cried coz of love???…many people I suppose… It’s very healthy….personally I scream,”Fuck him,fuck him.. Fuck love!!!!”๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚..trust me it helps(give it a try)….but the pain I feel at that moment I know it’s there to stay,in many forms,through many nights…

What is love with no attention??… Divided attention sucks,it hurts AF!!…I really love attention, no lie๐Ÿ˜Š..coz it makes me feel connected…Men,the best gift you can give your women is your undivided attention…

All in all,we cannot achieve personal enlightenment, a clarification of our souls,until we cease deluding ourselves.We must accept that life includes witnessing and personally experiencing pain.But don’t allow that love to make you suffer,get out of it if it’s too much…one day you will get lucky and find love….you can still love yourself๐Ÿ’–

Love is hard to find,hard to keep and hard to forget!

Thanks for reading and I hope it helps you๐Ÿ˜Š….love๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–

Survival

As am writing this,its 1:03am…insomnia?!..maybe๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…..the silence at night is a real inspiration… And some soft music…crazy combo…๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ‘Œ

๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿ‘‡

Uuhm,what’s survival???๐Ÿ˜ฑ…..(thinking about it..right??๐Ÿ˜›)

Okay,I’ll go ahead and tell y’all my understanding of the word survival….

^survival is an infinite capacity for suspision~John Le Carrรฉ^

Sooo,

โ€ขSurvival is that act or fact of surviving especially under adverse or unusual circumstances.

โ€ขSurvival is a talent(weird…huh??๐Ÿ˜‚)

โ€ขSurvival is a dying art.

Everyone Everywhere Everyday is trying to survive… So you know, nothing is perfect, life’s messy,relationships are complex,outcomes are uncertain and people are irrational… So do what it takes to survive….deeeyyymmm!!!..am feeling this shit too๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘

๐ŸกยฐยฐSurvival in our homesยฐยฐ๐Ÿก

Loves,trust me anyone you come across may not be having those perfect homes you think they have…..they may be lacking food(and remember food keeps us alive),peace(they don’t know what happiness means in their homes….

My point is,everyone is trying to survive…just be good to people!! That won’t cost you sh*t๐Ÿ˜Š

๐Ÿ“๐Ÿ“ยฐยฐSurvival in schoolยฐยฐยฐ๐Ÿ“๐Ÿ“

Ooh F**k!!!…do I have to go into details??๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚..Here is real survival.. I know y’all feel me๐Ÿ˜›๐Ÿ˜›

ยถยฐยฐsurvival in relationshipยฐยฐยถ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’

Tf!!!…this thing is real hustle๐Ÿ’ฏ๐Ÿ’ฏ…one thing you should know is that relationship isn’t going to make you survive… It’s the cherry on top…none is perfect!!!….learn the art of forgiveness, trust your partner,be loyal (it won’t cost you)…..e.t.c.., Anyway, am no Dr. Love!!๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ but I’ve brought a point home(I hope so๐Ÿ˜‡)…

You don’t develop courage by being happy in your relationships everyday. You develop it by surviving difficult times and challenging adversity.

ยถยฐยฐSurvival in our everyday livesยฐยฐยถ

….yeah,ik you gat to do what it takes to survive but just remember the “self respect” part alwaysโœŠ

It’s hard..really hard…no lie!!!!!but in the end one needs more courage to live than to kill himself/herself.

Don’t forget humour keeps us alive….let no fucking day pass without laughing… (The reason am always smiling it’s coz I know a woman laughing is a woman conquered… Can I get an Amen please!!!!!๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘)

Survival often feels like an indignity but all that matters is what you do to make it happen…..wait,ofcos some may cause you shame depending on the mechanism you choose for survival!!!!๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ˜‡

My people๐Ÿ’œ,don’t forget the Most High!!!..He helps in our survival,… Everyday speak something positive to your life and keep praying๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

Finally,for us to survive we should know who we want to be and what we want to do long…long before we know how to get there.Observe the survivors and learn from them too๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜„

~The human capacity for survival and renewal is awesome ~

Expect more stuff from me..this is just the beginning..,lotsa loveโคโค